My pain is not performative.
Jun. 9th, 2016 10:17 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jolantruThe niggling suspicion that SEA people in SEA are actually treated like flies in the peripheral: “Shut up lah, you are not included/worth.”
That’s how I perceive SEA sff writers from SEA being treated/perceived. The “lah” is my pidgin coming in. :P
But then again, that’s the USian and UK mentality. Hard to shake off the feeling that we are still exotic.
How do I express my frustration at being condescended at?
US culture wars want us to kvetch, rant and scream, then they hear our pain and think “it’s cool”.
Pain is not performative, in the long run. Hate is not performative, in the long run. It gets goddamn tiring. I do not want to perform my pain in front of you, like a side-show freak.
I don’t think you would advocate for me, because all I see are people throwing people under the bus. No respect, no care, no love.
I don’t think POC in US will speak for us. I don’t think they ever think we exist. That’s the fault of their geography.
So, SEA people in SEA, let’s support each other, lift each other up
That’s how I perceive SEA sff writers from SEA being treated/perceived. The “lah” is my pidgin coming in. :P
But then again, that’s the USian and UK mentality. Hard to shake off the feeling that we are still exotic.
How do I express my frustration at being condescended at?
US culture wars want us to kvetch, rant and scream, then they hear our pain and think “it’s cool”.
Pain is not performative, in the long run. Hate is not performative, in the long run. It gets goddamn tiring. I do not want to perform my pain in front of you, like a side-show freak.
I don’t think you would advocate for me, because all I see are people throwing people under the bus. No respect, no care, no love.
I don’t think POC in US will speak for us. I don’t think they ever think we exist. That’s the fault of their geography.
So, SEA people in SEA, let’s support each other, lift each other up
