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2017-10-03 06:14 pm
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More Update(ish)

I am going on a hiatus on Twitter, either until the end of the week or end of the month. Either way, it's good to be away from that toxic sludge of sound bites, people yelling to be heard, and the onslaught of bad news that seem to come from the States daily.

Happier news: Dragon Sisters is now available for sale in print, Gumroad and Amazon Kindle.

Poke me if you want to talk.
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2017-09-26 10:53 am
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Update(ish)

I am not well. Emotionally, I feel like a wreck, probably due to a confluence of many things: hormones (I want to be rid of my uterus), failure of selling my books and depression.

Happier news to pierce through this funk: Amazon is finally paying me.

Sadder news: Buying back the remainder might just be a mistake on my part. Hefty sum. People tell me that blame should also be placed on the publisher, but... I don't know. Singapore just isn't ripe for a real science fiction renaissance as people still skew towards foreign authors or local authors who make it big.
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2017-09-22 09:58 am
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News

Yes, I made the decision to buy the remainder of the Rider and Speaker books as they are not selling. Sales have been bad. The books have not been moving just as quickly as I'd though. Not sure whether it's due to marketing or that Singapore's indeed a small market - but I think it's time to take them off the shelves.
They have languished long enough. :/

That the remainder cost approx. 800 SGD... well, will be a strain on my pockets, but I pray the pain is worth it.

EDIT: If you can't help, just say so. Don't have to tell me "I am sorry" or "At least you have some sales, but sadly most don't have".

EDIT 2: I was receiving responses like the ones seen above.
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2017-09-09 09:32 pm
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Update(ish)

Saturday started off okay with me doing a podcast with the Skiffy and Fanty crew about the 40th anniversary of Close Encounters of the Third Kind. I am now part of this awesome group of people who love science fiction and fantasy - and the podcast was fun. My Internet was cutting off at certain points, so much so I had to switch back to using wifi which turns to be more stable and reliable. The Internet/cable provider has been experiencing issues with the cable routing in Asia.

Then, after the recording was done, I went out to meet D. and my youngest for lunch. I think the day kind of went down downhill from there. I was already feeling blah from not attending our local comic con as I have become so detached and disconnected from the local geek scene. By the end of the day, I was a mess of barely articulated resentment and frustration as my youngest was wilful and defiant for the entire afternoon and evening, sassy when told off, refusing to do her homework and pretending not to know about it when we had clearly informed her about completing everything before school starts next Monday.

Today was/is one of those days I feel stuck, like I am weighted down by responsibilities and shit that doesn't seem to go away. I guess my youngest's behavior exacerbated the feeling of resentment... of not being able to do stuff I could do a few years ago.

Of course, she had to top it off by playing with one of my swords and blunted the tip of it.

So, verdict for today: ugh.
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2017-08-20 07:51 pm
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LOL!

Apparently, it was a day of deja vu when I sliced off a bit of my left finger while pruning my butterfly pea plant. Shock, followed by pain and a bit of half-laughing, half-crying, and off I went to my general practitioner who dressed it, said it was a clean wound ("shaving accident") and gave me a booster jab.

Why I said deja vu was that I did something similar to the same finger a long time ago while I was still studying in Australia. :D

No painkillers, just the ache of my bruised ego
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2017-07-19 06:35 pm
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From my Wordpress blog update.

After three days of intensive theory and testing, I am now a certified first-aider. I am over the moon about this, because I fulfilled the promise I’d made for myself a while back. A bit of background why I wanted to learn first aid: my great grandparents from my paternal grandmother’s side of the family were physicians and bone-setters. My great grandmother herself was a herbalist and knew about herbs. So, I couldn’t be a doctor, since I chose the path of a historian – but my interest in medicine and helping people has always been there. The interest spiked while I coped with my chronic illnesses and many health scares.

So, what a week! 🙂
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2017-06-29 09:02 am
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Updates!

I am back from Cambodia. Flew back exactly a week ago. Siem Reap was hot, dry, but an eye-opening experience. Plus, the fried crickets were delicious, yum. Coming back was a culture shock - so much privilege, people taking things for granted.

Then, it's back to normal programming again. I need to plan... things, especially for two books. I ended up starting a new scarf, because this is how I plan: I knit. It's a meditative process where my mind lays out stuff while the needles move.

So, that's about it, small updates. :D
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2017-05-29 08:38 am
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A long-awaited update.

For people who are concerned about my previous posts about health:

The CT scan showed that it was just a fluid-filled cyst and my specialist didn't seem fussed about it, only slated another blood test (she's well-known for it amongst the nurses!) when I see her again in July. The blood test is to evaluate my liver functions. So basically ever since I came back from Perth, Australia, I had been exercising and watching what I eat. Gruelling and sometimes downright miserable-making for me - but it's paying off.

Just as well that my body past 40 seems to be rejecting/hating/disliking things gluten and dairy... which was a doozy for me because I love yoghurt and bread. But it seems that my colon doesn't appreciate a lot of it and even a tiny smidgeon triggers it to grumbling.

But hey, I feel fine at age 42.

So, that's the long and short about my health. Just give me lots of nice salads when you see me next time. :D
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2017-04-23 01:25 pm
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Updates: Swancon, back home.

I flew back from Swancon last Tuesday. Plane landed ahead of schedule. It was 4am. Spent a couple of days adjusting. It was a bit of a culture shock coming back to Singapore.

But Swancon has been awesome: nourishing to the soul and uplifting my spirits.
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2017-03-27 09:09 am
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More (medical) updates

Fast forward.

So, I have mild fatty liver and a 1cm lesion on my liver. Going in for a CT scan about two hours' time.

Positive, healing and good thoughts appreciated.

This has me totally strung=out and anxious.
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2017-03-14 10:08 am
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Another update.

This week in drama minggu ini…

Due to a drug allergy to the antibiotics,

I have rashes all over my body, the worst on my back, the most obvious on my upper arms.

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On a happier note, I will be GoH at Swancon 42!
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2017-03-01 01:02 pm
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1st March!

I will write.

I will live my life to the fullest.

Joy, kindness, peace.
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2017-02-27 12:30 pm
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Now: birthday week.

I turn 42.

Nature's given me a viral infection as a birthday present.

I am still alive. :D
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2017-02-20 01:28 pm
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Rumors about my death have been greatly exaggerated.

I am still alive.

Fever went away, though I still feel weak/fatigued. Though I had to end up cleaning the house (sweeping, mopping, wiping) since nobody had the freaking initiative to help me when I was sick and unable to move. Well, at least, the layer of dust is gone (and we live next to a construction site, so imagine the amount of dust we get). (I am also annoyed that the said site has patches of water everywhere - and they keep on blaming homeowners for mosquito breeding, when the evidence is right there in front).

But... yeah. I am alive.
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2017-02-17 02:01 pm
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Update.

Well, I seem to have caught (suspected) dengue. So, basically from Tuesday, my body temperature went from high to low. At the moment, the panadol given by my doc is keeping the fever low and at bay. I am basically monitoring for other symptoms that might just pop up.

I pray that it's just another viral infection, not dengue, because dengue is awful.

:(
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2017-02-07 04:25 pm
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Update(ish).

Still writing, in all levels of the word.

Werewolf space opera is going to go places.

Less brooding online. More swordwork, exercise, eat fresh.
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2017-01-19 12:56 pm
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Updates.

Cleansed the house. Got a cardio workout by mopping. Now the house smells of frankincense.

Did a burning bowl ritual. Wrote letters and burned them. Now onward to recovery.
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2017-01-16 02:49 pm
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Updates.

Well, recovery has begun apace. Writing my sword fantasy which I allowed to languish in the hard-drive for ten years. TEN YEARS.

So, a hour or so ago, I received the "feedback" from a (what I thought was) a trusted person. I received an essay-length email on how sword-fighting is supposed to be not. Classic mansplaining at its best. Needless to say, I actually blocked the person's email account - I was that annoyed.

Still writing the sword fantasy, even though it doesn't fit his world view.
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2016-12-19 08:17 pm
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Update

White & Black is up for Patron patreons.
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2016-12-10 08:51 pm
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Writery stuff

My short When All The Colors Have Gone is in Rambutan Literary's 3rd issue which explores the theme of food.

Going Beyond, a Buddhistpunk poem, is up and running on my Patreon.