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Unpopular opinion:

These people who keep on telling me that i am not a failure when i say that my books are not even on shelves are the ones who will signal boost other more popular (read: trad pub) authors and suck up to them. They will never signal boost my books.
jolantru: (piss off)
The niggling suspicion that SEA people in SEA are actually treated like flies in the peripheral: “Shut up lah, you are not included/worth.”

That’s how I perceive SEA sff writers from SEA being treated/perceived. The “lah” is my pidgin coming in. :P

But then again, that’s the USian and UK mentality. Hard to shake off the feeling that we are still exotic.

How do I express my frustration at being condescended at?

US culture wars want us to kvetch, rant and scream, then they hear our pain and think “it’s cool”.

Pain is not performative, in the long run. Hate is not performative, in the long run. It gets goddamn tiring. I do not want to perform my pain in front of you, like a side-show freak.

I don’t think you would advocate for me, because all I see are people throwing people under the bus. No respect, no care, no love.

I don’t think POC in US will speak for us. I don’t think they ever think we exist. That’s the fault of their geography.

So, SEA people in SEA, let’s support each other, lift each other up

Thoughts.

Apr. 1st, 2016 09:15 am
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I think to have only a few people (and they are not the majority) decide whether you are a good legitimate sff writer is ridiculous. It's basically your friends and fans voting you in - but it doesn't reflect well on the matter of merit.

Merit means you get there by sheer ability.

But awards mean there is a bunch of select people who would decide if your performance is good. That's not counting the silent readers, the people who do not want to vote, and people who are politicking to get their agendas heard.

At the moment, the awards are all either US- or UK-centric. But are these countries arbiters of good taste or indeed meritocracy? There are many mediocre work passed off as award-winning.

As historians, we know that sources are often biased and the victor(s) often decide who is let into their circle of privilege. As sff writers, we should be ashamed that we are doing that - and science fiction and fantasy is often an utopian idea where everyone is accepted. Which we have found out is not the case.

I wonder why isn't this privilege called out? Why aren't people saying that enough is enough, that at the end, the gatekeepers (white, US, cis) still want to maintain their status quo. Bear in mind that the POC/non-white they let through are probably the POC they want to see - and nothing else. That's why you see the same people winning the same awards everytime.

I don't believe in the US push for diversity. I am not even going to talk about the UK. If they insist that what they are doing is indeed for the sake of diversity, it's a delusion they will keep.
jolantru: (piss off)
So, self-appointed elder on Tumblr is kvetching about people not being diverse enough and imposing their one-true-way on hir. But all the way, the impression I get from hir is that hir is pretty much orthodox and imposes hir One True Way on others. Pot calling the kettle black. Asks are the norm on Tumblr - but hir answers are often put-downs and forays into hir own adventures.

Tell me, why do people give hir the attention?

And oh yes, like any self-appointed elders/autocrats/dictators etc, they pretty much send their packs of attack dogs at people who critique at them. Because critiques are personal attacks, you know.

Reminds me of the sff world, doesn't it?

Just, ffs, be a decent being.

EDIT: Self-appointed elder is still being a crappy attention-seeking wannabe elder. >.< *lops durians at people*
jolantru: (piss off)
I think I have gotten to the stage where I feel posting fiction/poetry acceptances and rejections on FB is just so blase. I mean, why do you want to do that? To keep score? To keep track? To play kindergarten politics? Sure, I would post the occasional “I signed …” stuff, but if your FB is just a series of your acceptances and rejections and whatever - then what’s your purpose of having FB?

People are inherently competitive. They keep saying “no, it’s not a zero-sum game”, because “we are nice people.” But if you are indeed a nice person, why are you causing anxiety to people? Are you fishing for compliments (because gosh darn, you are a good writer!) or validation?

Writers and poets all move at different paces. Do not expect people to be like you or work at your pace or standard. Nor not all people have the privilege of time and space to write that much like you.

We are all different. To expect everyone to move at the same speed is ridiculous.
jolantru: (phoenix fire)
And apparently, I am also unwell and on medical leave.

And so pissed on Imbolc.

A note: beware of unprofessional publishers.

Looks like Dragon Physician is looking for a good home.
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I updated my list of published works, and for 2015 -


Read more... )

It has been a bleak year for acceptances and my rejections list is long as a saint's scroll. But I am happy for one major acceptance - my YA sff novella with racing dragons!

Read more... )

Update.

Dec. 18th, 2015 05:39 pm
jolantru: (Default)
I am back from my cruise vacation - which had been fun, bad and good all together.

Let me recover first.
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It is the Youth Day holiday in lieu, so I have a day of rest (of sorts). But I have to see my breast specialist (and maybe yell at him). Yeah, yelling doesn't solve anything. It will feel good though to get things out.

I am damned tired of the side-effects.

EDIT: I didn't yell at him. >.
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Meow, my boy cat who is now an elderly cat, got admitted to animal hospital last Friday. He was diagnosed with diabetes and hated being in the hospital. Right now he's happily sunning himself in the spot of sunlight. Much better-looking now and less miserable.

Meanwhile, job search continues with random hair-tearing and empty promises.

Meanwhile, contracts (writing/publishing) are getting drafted and signed (I hope).

I can only hope so much until my heart breaks. My heart has been broken too many times of late. Goddess knows why I am still standing, still (oddly) optimistic. It feels like I am hitting a wall all the time.
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Everyone I know is coming down with something. I think I am having a relapse of the flu. Ugh. And work is insane. Extremely insane. We have had people quitting within two months.

The mood in the office isn't exactly peachy-keen. The stress level is awfully high, because of moving goalposts and impossible demands.

I want to write. Not work-related stuff. But actual honest-to-Goddess writing where I know at least my words are not taken for granted.
jolantru: (clarity)
Not touching writing with a ten foot pole today.

Is tired of all the writing stuff - silent walls, silent people, just silent. Whatever happened to writing for fun?

Is disgusted with herself. But sometimes, it's just emotionally exhausting going it alone.
Read more... )
jolantru: (sing to the dawn)
Yes, I am still grappling... strangling... Paypal and its strangeness when it comes to the Donate button. I have folks telling me that they are able to find five buttons under Website Payments Standard (after clinking on Merchant Services). I must have tried it countless times... to no avail. I only got to see Buy Now, Add To Cart and Subscribe.

Is there something Singaporean users are restricted to? (Like the Donate button) Or is it just me, net-clueless?

And...

I received another rejection letter/email from another local publisher. Reason: they do not publish genre fiction, especially speculative fiction! (Duh!)

EDIT:
After much swearing, tinkering and a helpful link by a friend, the Donate button has appeared and apparently worked.
jolantru: (cute)
Woke up today and found an email from Lulu. Apparently, they have cleaned up their act and listened to all their users. One of my pagan/spirituality books, The Peridot Path, is listed on Amazon. So, I went to check it. Nope. No cover, no description, nothing.

Oh Lulu, you have so much potential. Sad that you only want to exploit your users. Do the words vanity press mean anything to you?

LuluFail?

May. 27th, 2009 11:59 am
jolantru: (heart)
Apparently, Lulu.com has opened up a third-party store at Amazon's marketplace: here. Many independent publishers on Lulu.com (including me) have received an email stating that our books have been selected to be placed on Amazon's marketplace with a 30% increase in price. So, the title Wolf's Voice is now apparently $19 something - expensive. I have already emailed Lulu support to remove the title. I want to opt out.

Now, for independent publishers, exposure is always good, but at the expense of exorbitant prices? No. And worse, Lulu has not made any announcement to its users that it would put their titles and books on Amazon's marketplace.

Lulu, you fail when it comes to user relations and marketing.

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